A Little Sumthin’ Sumthin’ About Fibroids

uterusDisclaimer: This post may get a little graphic, so if you have a weak stomach you may want to skip this one. This is MY personal experience with fibroids.

Aliens are dwelling in my uterus; and those mofo’s seem to be having a lit party every freaking day. I have fibroids and they have completely altered my life in unimaginable ways.

Fibroids are noncancerous tumors that grow in the uterus, and they can vary in size. My fibroids are currently the size of small apples. They’re making me miserable most days. I already have another chronic condition; dealing with fibroids on top of everything else is a real bitch. One of the aliens has decided to press against my bladder. I kid you not I’m always having to pee. I think I’ve gone three times within the last hour today.

In 2010 my periods became noticeably heavier and more prolonged. A five day cycle increased to eight days within six months. I went from wearing regular pads, to needing both overnight pads, and super tampons. Yep, I have to wear pads and tampons at the same time. Other symptoms that caused concern were pelvic pain, lower back pain, frequent urination, and fatigue.

After my doctor scheduled an ultrasound, I was diagnosed with having aliens in my uterus, damn fibroids. I also was told that I was anemic due to the excessive monthly blood loss. That’s why I was feeling so weak and fatigued.

Immediately I had to start a regimen of taking iron supplements. Some women have to get blood transfusions because of their anemia. Thankfully, I haven’t had to go that route, but my heart goes out to anyone that has. Being anemic- according to my doctor, causes chest pain, and hair loss… I’ve experienced both in the years since my diagnosis.

For the longest my life revolved around my period. If something was going on like a concert, or a get together, and I was on my period, well then I couldn’t go. In 2012 after a grueling period that went on for twenty days, I decided to start taking birth control. My doctor at the time told me that the birth control would regulate my periods, and decrease my blood flow during my cycle. Taking birth control has its own drawbacks. I believe bc has made me even moodier than usual… I didn’t think that was possible. Out of my mood swings an alter ego has been birthed; her name is Squashzilla and she’s a beast!

You’re probably wondering about options, so let me fill ya in. An often chosen option for fibroid relief is surgery. The surgical procedures are a hysterectomy, or myomectomy. A hysterectomy is the surgical removal of the uterus. A myomectomy is the removal of the fibroids in the uterus. I haven’t had any children, so I want a myomectomy.

Unfortunately, nothing in my life is simple, so I’ll explain why I still have the aliens. One gynecologist didn’t want to perform a myomectomy on me because my skin scars easily, and excessively. I have keloids which makes every doctor I encounter nervous as hell. For more about keloids check out my post The Skin I’m In.

The current group of gynecologists I see at the county hospital are also “extremely hesitant” to perform surgery. There are two reasons why they don’t want to put me on the operating table. 1. Because of my skin condition. 2. Because I’m a single woman. Yeah, I can’t believe that crap either! A doc basically said that fibroids come back six to eight months after a myomectomy. “We could do a myomectomy, but they’ll come back, and that could possibly ruin your chances of having a child. And also you’ll have layers upon layers of scar tissue in an area that’s quite uncomfortable to have it. I think it’s best that you have the surgery when you’re in a relationship. That way you can plan to get pregnant a few months afterwards. Now, doesn’t that sound like a great option?”

She tried to single shame a sista!!! At least that’s the way I took it.

I may have to look into natural remedies to get rid of these damn aliens.

Fuck. Seriously.

I would love to get a third and fourth opinion, but being on Medicaid leaves you with hardly any options. I want a myomectomy so badly because my symptoms are getting progressively worse. I feel so trapped. Sometimes certain people in my life are incredibly unsympathetic. A relative has been distant because I missed her birthday party. Why did I miss her party? The morning of her party I had to get an endometrial biopsy at the doc’s office. I was unaware that I was getting that procedure done, and it’s painful. Soon as I got home I climbed in bed and tried to rest. An hour later I was doing a ton of bleeding so I just opted out of going to the party. I let her know and she seemed cool about it. However, since then she hardly speaks to me. I’m hurt, but what the hell was I supposed to do? I have too much going on to entertain bs. I’ve apologized, but she’s not really trying to be open to that.

I do have some understanding people in my life, and for that I’m thankful. I’m also in a fibroids support group on Facebook which has been very beneficial.

I know this post didn’t cover everything, but I hope it was helpful. My advice to other women is to do tons of research, get more than one opinion, and join a support group. My next gynecology appointment is in January. I’m hoping for positive news.

Cheers, homies!

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A Little Sumthin’ Sumthin’ About The Game Of Thrones Season Six Finale



Season Six of Game Of Thrones was pure epicness!  The season finale was straight up fire! Sadly, I’m going through withdrawals, for realz. This post is just a few of my thoughts about certain scenes. This is not a comprehensive review and I’m just doing it for fun.

Wildfire in King’s Landing- The finale started off with key characters getting ready for the trials of Ser Loras Tyrell, and Cersei Lannister at the Sept of Baelor. And by the way wasn’t that opening musical score beautiful? Lawd! I live for that kind of dopeness. Anyhoo, when the absence of King Tommen, and Cersei were noticed by Margaery, she tried to warn the High Sparrow that something was off. None of them had no idea what was about to hit them. The Wildfire stored in King’s Landing by King fucked in the head- aka Mad King Aerys, was ignited and killed everyone inside the Sept. Cersei destroyed all her enemies in one fatal damn swoop! Her vengeance came with a devastating price though… she also lost her last child when Tommen killed himself. I didn’t like Tommen, but I wasn’t expecting his death. On another note I loved the little birds. Those kids were starving (I bet), and probable took out Maester Pycelle for a damn chicken drumstick or something. I thought I was watching a medieval version of Children Of The Corn.

Celebration at the Twins- Walder Frey is boasting in a victory that he had nothing to do with. Don’t you hate it when folks do that? The Lannister army deserved the credit for sure, and Jaime Lannister made sure Walder knew that. Meanwhile, there was a servant girl going around giving Jaime “the look” at the banquet. Hmmm…

Oldtown’s dopest library- Sam, Gilly, and little Sam finally arrived at the citadel. Sam’s reaction to the library was priceless, and who could blame him. I mean my eyes got a little misty when I saw that ish. Only a lover of books could appreciate such a spectacular vision.

Ser Davos ready to raise hell in Winterfell- Ser Davos is fast becoming one of my favorite characters. Ser D confronts Melisandre about the killing of Shireen Baratheon, and the scene was everything! Ser D’s anger, heartache, and devastation over losing Princess Shireen  was evident in his words, and facial expressions. Melisandre had egg all over her damn face. I mean she really couldn’t say shit. Jon banished her from Winterfell and she got off easy. She was lucky that Ser Davos didn’t rip her a new one.

Some chit-chat in Dorne- The Dorne storylines have been mediocre at best. Ooh, but when I saw Lady Olenna I knew it was about to go down. Lady O brings the drama like no one else. Rocking her all black mourning garments she shut the Sand Snakes down, and I was rooting her on! Ellaria Sand was trying to get Lady O to form an alliance to go against Cersei. Varys soon appeared, and you know he had no trouble convincing Lady O to join the winning team.

Breaking up is hard to do in Mereen- Poor Daario! He was all about serving his Queen in and out the bedroom. All he wanted was to be by Daenerys’side, but she wasn’t having none of that.

Daario- “Babe, I love you.”

Dany- “Look we had fun. The sex was on point, but I have a damn kingdom to conquer. I don’t have time for some love bullshit. Dude, you can’t go where I’m going.”

Daario then asked if Tyrion was behind all that… and it was shown that he in fact was. Ooh, and how emotional was it when Dany made Tyrion Hand of the Queen?!

Ned would be proud of Arya- The Red Wedding was a memorable event in episodic television history. Arya has to be the smartest character of the entire show. She basically only trained with Jaqen just to get her revenge on all who hurt her family. When Arya slashed Walder’s throat I was mesmerized by the look on her face; she said so much without uttering a single word. Maisie Williams played the hell out of Arya in that scene. I enjoyed seeing Walder’s disgust when he realized that his sons were pie filling. And shout out to actor David Bradley who portrayed Walder Frey incredibly.

Sansa and Littlefinger- Sansa needs to get the hell away from Littlefinger! That man is dangerous, treacherous, and all the other adjectives that describe power hungry perverts. He can’t be trusted, Sansa! Just ask your dad!

R+L=One fine mofo!- I’ve only read the first two GOT books and will continue after the series finale. R+L=J was the first theory that I’d heard about when I got into GOT. Fans have long speculated that Jon Snow was the offspring of Rhaegar Targaryen, and Lyanna Stark, and not the “son” of Ned Stark, and some unknown woman. Getting confirmation of Jon’s parentage excited me more than I realized… but that reveal now may cause some new problems. Scratch that, it will cause some new problems.

King In The North- Please tell me that I wasn’t the only one shouting during this scene. I didn’t have a sword so I had to raise my remote in tribute. 😀 I was so happy and proud of Jon, but the true star of the scene was Lady Lyanna Mormont. She commanded respect and attention, and she got it. Bella Ramsey- aka Lady Mormont, has a bright future ahead of her in the acting game. She stole every scene that she was in. And the fact that GOT was her first gig… I’m blown away. I’m praying that we see her in the next season. Hecks, we need a damn Lady Mormont spin off show, dang it! Make it happen HBO!

The new Queen of Westeros- Rocking a black leather dress and giving no fucks, Cersei was crowned Queen. There was an aura in the crowd that said “we’re so fucked”. I mean no one was happy about Cersei becoming Queen. Jaime probably had all kinds of questions in his head. I can’t wait to see him confront her next season. I have a feeling that their little love affair is over.

Dany, dem dragons, and the peeps- Dany is not to be messed with! That ending scene with the fleets of boats gave me so much life! Dany started out as a frightened girl, but now she is that chick! We have waited so long for Dany to take back what belongs to her, and now she is on her way. Dany has gained so much strength and knowledge over the last few years. With the Dorne and Tyrell armies, the Iron Born, the Dothraki, the Unsullied, and Drogon, Rhaegal, and Viserion- aka dem dragons, behind her… ooh wee! Dany will be unstoppable! Cersei better get prepared because Dany is about to light a match to that ass, Targaryen style!

Season seven is going to blow all of us away!

Cheers, homies!


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