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A Little Sumthin’ Sumthin’ About Fibroids

uterusDisclaimer: This post may get a little graphic, so if you have a weak stomach you may want to skip this one. This is MY personal experience with fibroids.

Aliens are dwelling in my uterus; and those mofo’s seem to be having a lit party every freaking day. I have fibroids and they have completely altered my life in unimaginable ways.

Fibroids are noncancerous tumors that grow in the uterus, and they can vary in size. My fibroids are currently the size of small apples. They’re making me miserable most days. I already have another chronic condition; dealing with fibroids on top of everything else is a real bitch. One of the aliens has decided to press against my bladder. I kid you not I’m always having to pee. I think I’ve gone three times within the last hour today.

In 2010 my periods became noticeably heavier and more prolonged. A five day cycle increased to eight days within six months. I went from wearing regular pads, to needing both overnight pads, and super tampons. Yep, I have to wear pads and tampons at the same time. Other symptoms that caused concern were pelvic pain, lower back pain, frequent urination, and fatigue.

After my doctor scheduled an ultrasound, I was diagnosed with having aliens in my uterus, damn fibroids. I also was told that I was anemic due to the excessive monthly blood loss. That’s why I was feeling so weak and fatigued.

Immediately I had to start a regimen of taking iron supplements. Some women have to get blood transfusions because of their anemia. Thankfully, I haven’t had to go that route, but my heart goes out to anyone that has. Being anemic- according to my doctor, causes chest pain, and hair loss… I’ve experienced both in the years since my diagnosis.

For the longest my life revolved around my period. If something was going on like a concert, or a get together, and I was on my period, well then I couldn’t go. In 2012 after a grueling period that went on for twenty days, I decided to start taking birth control. My doctor at the time told me that the birth control would regulate my periods, and decrease my blood flow during my cycle. Taking birth control has its own drawbacks. I believe bc has made me even moodier than usual… I didn’t think that was possible. Out of my mood swings an alter ego has been birthed; her name is Squashzilla and she’s a beast!

You’re probably wondering about options, so let me fill ya in. An often chosen option for fibroid relief is surgery. The surgical procedures are a hysterectomy, or myomectomy. A hysterectomy is the surgical removal of the uterus. A myomectomy is the removal of the fibroids in the uterus. I haven’t had any children, so I want a myomectomy.

Unfortunately, nothing in my life is simple, so I’ll explain why I still have the aliens. One gynecologist didn’t want to perform a myomectomy on me because my skin scars easily, and excessively. I have keloids which makes every doctor I encounter nervous as hell. For more about keloids check out my post The Skin I’m In.

The current group of gynecologists I see at the county hospital are also “extremely hesitant” to perform surgery. There are two reasons why they don’t want to put me on the operating table. 1. Because of my skin condition. 2. Because I’m a single woman. Yeah, I can’t believe that crap either! A doc basically said that fibroids come back six to eight months after a myomectomy. “We could do a myomectomy, but they’ll come back, and that could possibly ruin your chances of having a child. And also you’ll have layers upon layers of scar tissue in an area that’s quite uncomfortable to have it. I think it’s best that you have the surgery when you’re in a relationship. That way you can plan to get pregnant a few months afterwards. Now, doesn’t that sound like a great option?”

She tried to single shame a sista!!! At least that’s the way I took it.

I may have to look into natural remedies to get rid of these damn aliens.

Fuck. Seriously.

I would love to get a third and fourth opinion, but being on Medicaid leaves you with hardly any options. I want a myomectomy so badly because my symptoms are getting progressively worse. I feel so trapped. Sometimes certain people in my life are incredibly unsympathetic. A relative has been distant because I missed her birthday party. Why did I miss her party? The morning of her party I had to get an endometrial biopsy at the doc’s office. I was unaware that I was getting that procedure done, and it’s painful. Soon as I got home I climbed in bed and tried to rest. An hour later I was doing a ton of bleeding so I just opted out of going to the party. I let her know and she seemed cool about it. However, since then she hardly speaks to me. I’m hurt, but what the hell was I supposed to do? I have too much going on to entertain bs. I’ve apologized, but she’s not really trying to be open to that.

I do have some understanding people in my life, and for that I’m thankful. I’m also in a fibroids support group on Facebook which has been very beneficial.

I know this post didn’t cover everything, but I hope it was helpful. My advice to other women is to do tons of research, get more than one opinion, and join a support group. My next gynecology appointment is in January. I’m hoping for positive news.

Cheers, homies!

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About Se'Quasha Smith

I'm a writer/poet/aspiring author who is hardcore obsessed with books, music, movies, dope TV shows, and a ton of other random ish.

2 responses to “A Little Sumthin’ Sumthin’ About Fibroids

  1. Fibroids run in my family and I have symptoms that point to me having them as well, though I’ve never had a real diagnosis. Mainly because every time I tell the doctors or nurses, they blow it off. I get sharp Freddy-Krueger-is-stabbing-me pains that run through my uterus and rectum. I also have ridiculously heavy periods. I used to think that maybe I was exaggerating and then I started using a menstrual cup (which I love) and it has measurements inside it. I began to write down how many mililiters I was losing with each dump of the cup during the first cycle I used it. I was in shock and in disbelief. So I waited till my next cycle and tried to be as precise as possible. Low and behold, it was the same. And mind you by the 4th and 5th day I gave up measuring because I was so bummed. The average woman with a normal flow, loses about 30-40ml a cycle. The average woman with a heavy flow, loses around 60-80ml. I lose around 130-140ml!!! WTF?!?! Wearing pads and tampons together have been my life since the beginning and my period used to be HEAVIER than it is now! I feel your pain, believe me. So anyway, that’s my story and one day I’ll cuss out the doctor when they ignore me. Ha! But as far as what the doctor said to you, I don’t think she was single shaming you. To me, her reasoning sounds legit. Mind you, I didn’t hear her tone or see her face as she said it. But if you want to have kids and if the surgery and consequent growing back of the aliens will hinder that, then you should wait till you’re in a relationship. It just sucks that you have to suffer until then. And did you ever consider adoption? I know it’s not the same. But I’m a firm believer that there’s a reason for infertile couples or women who can’t conceive due to medical reasons. The reason is that there are thousands of children who need a home and need love and at the same time you can stop being in pain. Just a suggestion. Either way, you know I love you and will always be an ear and a shoulder if you need one.💜

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    • You know I love me some you! Gurl, I’m so convinced that the doctors you’ve seen are basically dumbasses. They need to take your concerns seriously. A woman knows when something isn’t right with her body. Plus, you’re losing so much blood! Lawd! I’m sorry you have to deal with below the waist drama too. Shouldn’t we get free tickets to Disneyworld because of all we go through? 😀 I’ve definitely considered adoption for sure. Especially because I’m not where near ready to be someone’s mom anytime soon. The doctor was a little prissy heifer and just had this air of arrogance about her. I didn’t like her! Lol. Hoping that the new year brings healing to both of us. Gurl, I’m tired of rocking pads and tampons.

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