Writing Playlist #3

aicThis playlist features music from one of my fav bands! Alice In Chains!!

1. Angry Chair

2. Love Hate Love

3. Rotten Apple

4. Sunshine

5. Bleed The Freak

6. Heaven Beside You

7. Dirt

8. Over Now

9. Them Bones

10. Sea Of Sorrow

11. Would

12. Junkhead

13. I Stay Away

14. So Close

15. Man In The Box

16. No Excuses

17. Got Me Wrong

18. Brother

19. Hate To Feel

20. Sludge Factory

21. Rooster

22. Down In A Hole

Cheers, homies!

 

 

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Nine Boss Reads

The following nine books helped pull me out of a reading slump. Usually, I write about books in my Current Reads, and What I’m Digging posts, but I decided to do a separate posts for these.

beast 1. Beast by Pepper Pace- Pepper Pace is a hella talented writer who specializes in erotic romance. Her novel Beast is a modern day retelling of the classic fairytale Beauty And The Beast. Christopher is a Marine born with a severe cleft palate, and has a facial deformity. Ashleigh works for the government, is a gorgeous plus-size woman, and has her share of issues. The pair start out as friends, but with their undeniable chemistry they soon turn into lovers. Beast was the type of love story that was easy to get lost in. It also managed to make me think deeply about the standards of beauty society tries to force upon us. We get so caught up in the physical sometimes… when we should really appreciate inner beauty instead. I gave this incredibly written novel 5 stars.

invasion 2. The Invasion by Brett McBean- This is the first novel By Australian author Brett McBean that I’ve read; and it wont be the last I assure you. He took the classic home invasion scenario and turned it up to ten. The novel is about a best-selling author who threw a Christmas party for her loved ones. A portion of the guests leave with four remaining, and everyone left experiences a night of terror and madness. The Invasion was disturbing, gruesome, and well written. It’s not for the faint of heart, this novel really takes it there with a high level of violence that never lets up. 4.5 Stars

cotd 3. Children Of The Dark by Jonathan Janz- Mr. Janz has quickly become one of my new fav writers. Horror writing is often frowned upon, but Jonathan’s prose, and colorful language made for a compelling- unforgettable, read. COTD introduces us to Will Burgess who is fifteen, and will undergo the worst summer of his young life. In the small town of Shadeland, storms of both rain, and evil are about to descend on the unsuspecting residents. COTD was so well executed, and is a fucking flawless masterpiece. 5 Stars

troop 4. The Troop by Nick Cutter- Described as 28 Days Later meets Lord Of The Flies, The Troop is about a group of boy scouts, and their scout leader. They were supposed to spend a weekend camping in the Canadian wilderness, but plans changed with a quickness! A supposed to be fun trip turned into a weekend of unspeakable horror. I’m trying to be as vague as possible because readers should go in blind. One scene grossed me out so much that I scratched up my arms because it felt like something was crawling on my skin. 5 Stars

moore 5. Moore To Love by Faith Andrews- Madeline Moore is a full-figured protagonist on the road to loving, and valuing herself. As a thick chick currently on a self-love journey, I connected with this book from the first page. Putting this down wasn’t an option because it was funny, and delightful. Faith Andrews is freaking fantastic, and checking out her other works is a given. 4 Stars

before 6. Before I Go To Sleep by S.J. Watson- This was a psychological thriller about a woman suffering from a rare form of amnesia. Each morning Christine has to familiarize herself with everything around her; she’s unable to retain her memories from the previous day. The beginning and ending of this novel were mind-blowing, the middle was a bit difficult to get through. I found myself rushing through certain sections, so I had to give it a rating of 3.5 Stars. I still dug the book, but would have rated it higher if it hadn’t been for the middle section.

sister7. The Sister by Louise Jensen- Psychological thrillers have become my shiz! Grace is grieving for her best friend, Charlie, and having drama with her significant other, Dan. A woman claiming to be Charlie’s sister gets in contact with Grace, and that’s when she begins to deal with unthinkable issues. The Sister had me all kinds of anxious, and the twists and turns kept me engrossed from start to finish. Ooh, and what a finish it was! That plot twist was Hitchcockian, for realz! 4 Stars

everything 8. Everything I Never Told You by Celeste Ng- From the synopsis we’re told that the middle child of an interracial (Chinese-American and white) family in 1970’s Ohio is dead. Marilyn and James Lee put the burden of their unfulfilled desires on their daughter, Lydia, with crushing results. The Lee’s had two other children, but Lydia has had their focus from the day she was born. That kind of favoritism is essentially just a recipe for disaster within families. This is one of the saddest novels I’ve ever read. Marilyn and James were just existing and not truly living. Their children were just longing for love and attention that I didn’t feel that they received. And although we know from the  start that Lydia died, the story shows all the events leading up to her death. It’s almost like a mystery is within this family drama, because you’re trying to piece together just how Lydia died, and under what circumstances. 4.5 Stars

Into 9. Into The Darkest Corner by Elizabeth Haynes- Girl meets Boy. Girl falls madly in love with Boy. Boy turns out to be a psychopath. Girl tries to rebuild her life. This is a beautifully complex psychological thriller that had me double checking if the doors were locked, and if all the closets were empty! 😀 I don’t want to say too much about this amazing novel… just read it! 5 Stars

Cheers, homies!

 

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The Slump

batman  Writing has always been my tool for escapism, and self-medicating in a sense. When everything else in life turned to shit, writing was always there to pick up the pieces. Writing is a constant companion who has never let me down, and I’ve grown to really lean on it during difficult times. So when I experienced signs of a writing slump early this summer, well I wasn’t too concerned… at first. Two weeks then went by without wrist movement, but that was quickly blamed on health issues.

Once a month passed panic began to set in. Writer’s block not only had reared its ugly head, but my enthusiasm for writing had went out the door. Writing was the last thing on my mind and I wasn’t used to that. I couldn’t find the passion to work on anything. Briefly I would look over my work, but I wasn’t inspired enough to add to anything.

“What’s the point? You suck at writing anyway, Se’Quasha.”

When I first heard that bitch, aka my inner editor, I was wondering what the hell?! The bitch was coming in loud and clear. I was feeling so down and defeated that I started listening to her negative rants.

“How long have you been working on your book? You’ll never finish it. Your short stories suck way more than your novel does. Again what’s the point? You’re wasting your time. No one is going to read anything from you anyway.”

Depression and anxiety had given me a kick to the gut, but my insecurities vocalized brought me to my knees. All those things were a crushing weight and I felt trapped.

Going into month two I was trying to take notes for certain stories, but that was me trying to hold on to my work.

“If you quit who will blame you? You have all these health issues and it’s just too much. Just quit.”

Then I said to myself that Jackie Collins wrote five best-sellers while battling stage four breast cancer. She wrote, she promoted, and she still found the time to uplift others. The woman was a fighter and if she could do it… then so could I.

As of today I’m back to working on my novel and short stories. I still hear that negative voice, but now I’m more proactive with ignoring it, and continuing on. I also watch videos about other writers who have dealt with insecurities, and depression. Anyone will tell you that writing while dealing with depression is hard, but not impossible. So I just keep on keeping on one word, one sentence, and one page at a time.

Cheers, homies!

 

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